God has given each one of us specific gifts, talents, and things to do in this life. These things that He has given us are not meant to be used just to fulfill us and make us happy (although, if it is what He wants you to do it you will have joy). These gifts are to be used to help, encourage, uplift, challenge, and change the world around us. For me personally, I believe that God has called me to use photography to encourage those around me. At first when I felt like God wanted me to do this, I ran away… which I normally do when a challenging thing confronts me. Although I have been running…and running…and um…running… away from this challenge (but also, amazing opportunity), I have realized that God is not going to let me outrun it. He is always one step ahead of me, gently turning me around to head back towards where He is calling me to be. So this time I am not running away. I am facing this head on. I want to do what God calls me to do.
One of the ways that I have been running away from God has set before me is the internet. Oh the awesome, incredible, time consuming internet. See, I have a love/hate relationship with the grand world wide web. I find myself being sucked in like Alice in Wonderland. Down the rabbit hole I go...
I travel so far into “Wonderland” sometimes that I lose track of time and when I finally make it back to reality, it’s time for Daniel to come home from work and I have successfully wasted another day by getting sucked in by the computer. I have always had strong convictions about spending too much time on the internet because I felt like I should be doing something more glorifying to God and more helpful to others, but like I normally do, I run away by letting myself getting trapped scrolling through Pinterest and Facebook. It always starts the same way… I have good intentions… Oh, I’ll just look so I can learn more things to do in photography or whatever I’m trying to figure out.
Recently, I have realized why I let myself do this. It’s because I’m scared. I am so scared about not knowing how to do what I am supposed to that I just let myself get caught up in researching how to do it. For example, when it comes to photography, I will spend HOURS looking up how to get the lighting right, how to pose, how to use my camera, what’s the best lens to have, etc… without ever even touching my camera! (Side note: I do still use my camera, just not nearly as much as I should be). It is crazy that I have let fear rule my life so much. I feel like I have to know EVERYTHING about a subject before I even try to do it. You know what though, I am tired of living vicariously through Pinterest! The best way I can learn how to do something is by actually doing it, and if I failed at least I tried. The good thing about actually trying is that I can actually learn how to get better. I can’t get that by saving another bookmark on my computer. From now on, I am leaving Alice behind and I am staying out of Wonderland…at least most of the day 🙂
So, I encourage you, whatever it is that God is calling you to do that you are running away from. Don’t. (Ehem, there’s a story about that one 😉 ) . He is gracious and will lead you where you need to go but man it’s a lot easier to let Him guide you the right way and not running the opposite way of where He is trying to take you.